Three days have passed and again I sit at my computer. Again I see the vortex. This time I enter it, but I know somehow that I shall return to my physical world. As I travel deeper and deeper into the Vortex, I find that the way back closes behind me. At first I am afraid and then, strangely, I am reassured. Now I cannot return to my old way of perceiving reality.
Can I ground this experience on the physical realm? I do not know. Maybe, I will not need to. Maybe the physical reality will rise to meet me. Or, perhaps a part of me will remain here, away from everything that I have known and felt secure in. Remarkably, I am not worried. I am able to continue my journey with my worries doing nothing more than crossing my mind.
Now that I am surrounded by the Vortex I begin to feel a deep change in my consciousness. I am not familiar with this experience. It is different from any of my meditations. What is happening to me? My form is changing. My hands are glowing and my color is becoming more vivid and my body more translucent. My feet are not so defined. I find that they are growing accustomed to this form of travel, which is more like I am swimming in water than walking on land. However, I am in am upright position and my feet are moving like I am treading water while my hands are moving out in front of me in wide circles.
As I move through space I find that the speed of my movement is not determined by my bodily movements, but by my thoughts. When I am afraid to move on, I don’t, no matter how fast I move my limbs. But, when I am ready to have the next experience, I find I am there even if I do not move my body at all. “Am I ready?” I sincerely ask myself. “Yes. I want the next experience,” I decree.
Suddenly a Being of beaming golden light comes to greet me. This Being is both male and female and emanates the purest, most unconditional love that I have ever felt.
“I am Arcturian,” the being says. The being is very large and I find my size increasing to match its size.
“I don’t wish to overtake you in size,” it says. ” I want you to realize that your current body is only one of your choices upon this dimension.”
I nod in agreement and somehow understand.
“Am I to go to one of your spaceships?”
“There are no ships within the Vortex. They are not necessary here. All travel within the Vortex is done with Spirit/Mind.”
“I am ready for the next experience,” I say with some assurance.
“Then follow me.”
As I begin to follow the Arcturian I question whether this is such a good idea.
“Do not be concerned. All will be fine. You can stop this experience any time that you wish to.”
“No, I do not wish to stop it. I am just not used to proceeding in any direction without first doubting myself. It is an old habit I learned in my physical embodiments.”
I muster up all the courage and will power I can find within myself and decide to control my thinking to be only positive. As we travel into the Vortex I begin to see more changes within my form. I am becoming more and more transparent. My body no longer has the hard edges, angles, nails, or hair. I am becoming a body of light with light coming from my head instead of hair and from my hands and feet as well. I wonder if I will ever be able to go back to the physical world in this condition.
“If you wish to return to that dimension, your body will again adjust itself. However, if you are going to go back and forth very often, it is best that you leave your physical form in a safe location and travel here in your inner body only. This is what the Masters do to maintain a physical form for hundreds of years.“
I am not sure if I want to maintain a physical form or not. This experience is what I have waited for all my life. If only I could help some of my loved ones to join me here it would be perfect. However, I knew that I may not be able to be with them when I made this transition. I do not want to change my mind now. I will continue until I am directed otherwise.
“Follow me,” I hear the Arcturian say.
As I follow it I find that I am feeling very happy. I am happy to know that I AM MOVING INTO THE NEXT PHASE OF MY LIFE FORCE. As I have this realization, I can feel myself detach from all of life as I have known it. Am I ready for this shift? I am not sure, but I am sure that I must move forward as it is my destiny in this life to cross over to the other dimensions in a conscious state. As this life and all the many lives that I have remembered move across my mind I have a feeling of completion that I have never felt in my physical reality.
The Arcturian kindly reaches its hand toward me. As I reach for it, I take one last glance back to life, as I have known it.
“Good bye dear life and all whom I have loved. I know that love knows no separation. If you cannot experience me consciously, then please feel my deepest love, which I will constantly send to you. I go now to forge a road that others can travel. Allow my love for you to serve as a trail which you can follow.”
I turn to take my guide’s hand and feel the familiarity in its touch. Look into my eyes,” it says telepathically. “I have something to show you.”
As I look into its eyes I see all that I have been in all my lives. I see the progression of lessons that took many, many lives to complete placed before me in a “no time situation”. All the patterns and lessons of many lives on Earth are instantly in front of me in one picture. At first, I have a very difficult time focusing on the image, as it is multidimensional. I am still clinging to my Earth way of perceiving.
“Release all old methods of perception. Allow yourself to see with your Soul.”
I call the “feel” of Soul consciousness and perception. Gradually, the image before me begins to shape into an understandable form. I see a staircase with each step being a lesson of a different color and tone. Certain colors and tones are repeated with different degrees of variation. Sometimes the color and tone makes a step that is pure and sweet, and sometimes the step is muddied in color and flat or dissonant in pitch.
Instantly, I understand that each of the distorted steps must be repeated again and again until they have transcended into the state of their greatest purity. Much to my happiness, I find that most of these steps have risen to their ultimate vibration. However, there are still three steps that need to complete their healing and lessons. What are the lessons inherent in these three steps? Before I can determine that answer, the vision fades.
“You must find the answer to that question when you return to your physical form,” instructs my guide.
I find myself again before the computer. The keys are hard beneath my fingers and the glare of the screen erases the vision of the Vortex. However, I do remember. I remember the stairway and I remember that three steps are tainted and dissonant. What are these steps? What do they represent?
This exercise is ridiculous, I say to myself as I realize that the clock beside my computers reminds it is time to go to work. Who do I think I am talking to an Arcturian? I could never do that. I must be crazy. Suddenly, a great fear overtakes me. Maybe I am crazy and I am making this all up. Even if it were possible to talk to an extraterrestrial, why would it pick me? Who am I? I’m just a regular person sitting in front of my computer.
I close the file and turn off the computer. Just a moment ago I was “swimming” in space. I was completely at peace. I loved where I was and who I was. Now, I doubt my sanity. I am filled with thoughts of limitation. I am afraid.
From the time of my last entry, I have been miserable. My entire life has been filled with disappointments and frustrations. Each day, in despair and fatigue, I fell into my bed and had frustrating and frightening dreams. Finally, this morning I awoke with the knowledge of the three steps and came immediately to the computer.
“Thoughts of Limitation, Feelings of Fear, and Doubt of Self are the names of the three steps.” I exclaim as I enter the vortex and stand before the Arcturian.
“Yes. Now that you know their name you can learn to walk upon those steps proudly and consciously. Now let us continue our journey.”
As we continue into the heart of the void I feel more changes in my form. I use the term form because “body” now has a new meaning. Body means a group of molecules that congregates together into a collective reality that then becomes a cohesive, self-sufficient unit of consciousness.
The form that I travel in is no longer self-sufficient. It is a component of a larger collective reality that I now journey to commune with. The shape that I use for my journey will change with my awareness of myself as a portion of this greater whole. As we move deeper into the Vortex it becomes a universe of its own. It is no longer a physical phenomenon. It is a living entity that is a part of yet another entity that is part of yet another entity – like a house of mirrors.
The Arcturian pauses and turns to me, “We will now meet the Greeter.”
I am unaware of what it means by this term but I am willing to allow the experience.
“The Greeter is not a form but is instead a vibration,” continues the Arcturian.
As I move towards the Greeter I feel an overwhelming sense of peace and love. I find my hands raising of their own accord and reaching out to touch this vibration. As I do so my consciousness expands beyond any limit I have previously known. I become the Greeter, I am the Greeter, and I am greeting myself as I am greeted. All sense of time and space are erased from my mind. I can no longer perceive the world in the linear fashion. All – is All – in All.
There is a birth of a vibration deep within the DNA structure of my every cell that is the beginning of a transformation over which I can not oversee, try, effort, or direct. This transformation is one that has lain latent within the very cellular structure of my form. Something is forever transformed within me. I look at my form. It is not that different from what it has been, but yet, it is becoming different from deep within its biopsychic reality.
Since there is no time or space here, I cannot predict how long this transformation will take or how I will be when it is complete. There has been a birth from deep within myself yet; there has been no death. I do not need to end or change anything. This new self is gradually overcoming the reality under which I had once functioned. I feel this new expression of myself coming forward into my conscious awareness, but I am not yet fully conscious of it.
“I wish to be conscious of this transformation and to consciously experience this activation of my latent DNA structure,” I say to the Arcturian.
“In order to do so,” he replies, “you must release all THOUGHTS OF LIMITATION, FEELINGS OF FEAR, AND DOUBTS OF SELF.”
With that sentence, I am back in my mundane world. I scream deep within my core, “I want to continue this process. Why am I back in my everyday world?”
An inner voice speaks and my fingers respond upon the keyboard.
“That is the process, my One. The first ones through the vortex will lead the rest into the New World that will manifest gradually and slowly within the most normal of circumstances. Now dear, you must remember who I am and that you are a part of me even when you are surrounded by your physical life. When you have had that experience, return to me. Then, the voice fades from my mind and I am ALONE!!
But, am I really alone, what about my memory? I can remember my experience. I can remember the transformation. Isn’t that what will make it conscious? I said that I wanted the process to be conscious, so therefore I must make it a part of my mundane reality. As I drive to work, I MUST REMEMBER. As I go to sleep, I MUST REMEMBER. As I wake up, I MUST REMEMBER. And most difficult of all, as I face the challenges and difficulties of everyday life, I MUST REMEMBER.
However, remembering is so difficult within the stress of everyday life. The effort of remembering seems sometimes to make life more difficult because it makes me feel different and separate from those around me. I feel the need to return to myself, to return to my true reality inside the Vortex to once and for all be free of the illusion of a world that seems so separate from Spirit. I must meditate again. I must return to the Arcturian.
I go deep inside myself, but the frustrations and disappointments of the mundane word impinge upon my consciousness. The feelings of discordance and fear are overwhelming. I call upon my Soul. I call its name again and again in my consciousness. Can I trust myself? Can I trust my experiences as being real? Can I allow myself this inner life that seems to separate me from those around me. But, simultaneously, makes my life have purpose?
“Can you allow yourself Love?” the reply comes to my thoughts.
“I can give love much easier than I can receive it” I reply. “It is difficult to trust those who appear to love me.”
“Can you trust me?’ comes the voice of my Soul.
Before I can respond, the Vortex opens before me and I step into it. The Arcturian awaits me with its loving presence. I feel no need to share my experiences. I know that they are already known. The fear, self-doubt, and thoughts of limitation fade quickly as we move deeper into the Vortex together. When we come to the Greeter, I raise my hands and again experience LOVE—PURE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Love without fear, sadness, or need. Love that is an essence that is felt within every cell and atom of my body and is mine to give and to receive. This love flows through me to purify and heal me. It completes me and makes me remember.
I look to the Arcturian and realize that it is myself from another time and vibration. I remember my life on Arcturus where I often returned after lives, in which I had been able to raise my vibration enough to remember—remember my Self. The Arcturian, my Higher Self, kindly reminds me that after I left Atlantis I lived in the fourth dimension just above Earth. Gradually, I became entangled in the physical plane and then regularly took embodiment on the physical plane.
“Time is not what it appears to be in your Earth memory,” the Arcturian says. “Time and space are really one as they wrap around each other on the ‘ladder’ of a time/space continuum. This ‘ladder’ looks much like a DNA molecule. ‘Time’ is one side of this of this ladder and ‘space’ is the other side.
“Time and space are in communication with each other via the rungs of this ladder. These time/space rungs carry your various third and fourth dimension lives or realities. Reality is the chosen term rather than lives because ‘life’ is a continuous process that knows no interruption. However, when you change realities or rungs you often forget the experience of the other rungs.
“This time/space ladder is actually a huge circle and every reality is connected via the sides of the ladder. When there is an awareness of the other rungs within any given reality, you have the option to consciously move in your consciousness to any of the other rungs to make changes. These changes then travel along the time/space continuum and influence all the other third and fourth dimensional realities. Therefore, a transmutation on one reality can expand to all your Earth realities. The key is to become conscious of this tool and to use it. Your planet has been enshrouded in a Veil of Maya, which is now lifting because Earth and all of Her inhabitants are rising in vibration and moving into the fourth dimension.
“I am one of the many who has come to assist Earth in this process. To assist one of you helps all of you. When one raises their consciousness, they contribute to all by rising the resonate frequency of the planet. From the perspective of the fifth dimension, on which I vibrate, the ladder of the time/space continuum is clearly visible. From this dimension, one is able to realize and to heal the many of the realities that they have lived during many different times and different cultures. The multinational realization and healing clears ‘national pride’ and allows each of you to move into Planetary Consciousness. As you experience the unity of Planetary Consciousness, you can then expand to Galactic and then to Celestial Consciousness.”
“Open your heart to unconditional love and open your mind to unlimited thinking.”
I hear the voice of the Arcturian as I feel these words within my essence. I see myself deep within the Vortex and I raise my hands to the Greeter and wait for the feeling of Unconditional Love. The feeling begins in my third eye and expands across my face and deep into my heart. My mind is now open, as is my heart. But wait; is that a drop of fear? I release it to the Greeter. Please take this fear from me. It is only lack of faith. For a moment the Greeter takes on a face just long enough to smile. Its eyes calm and absorb my fear within its love. I see the fear swirl away from me to be transmuted into the unknown which I enter.”
I now travel deeper into the Vortex than I have ever traveled before. I see many beautiful lights and hear many wonderful, harmonious tones. I understand how these lights and tones are working together in creation.
“They are creating a new body for you,” says the Arcturian in its usual loving tone. “As you begin to raise your vibration on a physical level there are certain sensations that will occur. The first sensation is one of reoccurring heat coursing through your body in a swirling fashion. Allow the heat to work at breaking loose old concepts that have become embedded in the tissue of the body. Weight loss often accompanies this process as the actual tissue is removed. Fat tissue is especially prone to hold old pattern as it is of a lower vibration than any other tissues. Also it serves as an insulating mechanism and is often brought onto the body when one who is very sensitive to others is in a dangerous physic situation or barraged by many other peoples auras.
“You must take very good care of yourself as you will be more fragile and sensitive than before. This is why many people in this process will go into nature or on a retreat. When you are in your home you must learn to set down rules with those around you so that you will not allow negativity. Chant – MY HOME IS A PLACE OF PEACE.
“Communicate with others clearly so that they will have to cease any negative behavior if they wish access to your heart. Tell them that you are undergoing a transformation and that you can no longer tolerate any fear and negativity to live in your home. They must deal with their fear in another way than giving it to you. REFUSE to take their fear. Tell them that you will remove yourself from them if they fall into those old behaviors.”
I do not question these statements and wish only to accept them. I realize that I have volunteered to consciously experience my transmutation. I feel the lights and tones caressing my body. I know that this is a body of a finer vibration and that my physical form awaits me. I am also confident that the metamorphosis that I am undergoing within myself will extend into the physical plane. I see the light and sound working within my form. They seem to be purging certain aspects of me that are of a lower vibration which I no longer need. I trust the process. I see other lives flash before me as well as long forgotten memories of my present reality. I am creating a new reality. Within this reality I am FREE. I am not free of something or someone but free of LIMITATION, FEAR, AND DOUBT. An infinite horizon opens before me with infinite potential.