I heard a voice say from somewhere inside of me… Or was the voice external?
I looked around the small room in which I was sitting. Yes, over there, off to the right was a shadow, a slight movement, a disturbance in the air.
I heard the voice echo both inside and outside of me. Yes, now I understood. It was a fifth dimensional being flickering in and out of my third dimensional world. Actually the being was holding steady. It was my perception of the being that was flickering.
It was happening more and more now. I would suddenly hear, see, or feel something, or someone, that was not a part of my third dimensional reality. These were not members of the fourth dimensional world. How did I know the difference? The difference was that these perceptions were completely free of ALL fear.
“You can perceive us now because you are becoming free of fear, as well,” spoke the voice off to my right.
I did not respond to the voice or even question its statement. Instead, I began to ponder a reality free of ALL fear. How would that feel? How would that look? How could that be possible?
“We have remembered how to integrate our fear back into our light,” spoke the voice that was now taking a shape. Actually, it was I that was changing rather than the voice. I had also learned that when I focused my attention onto the wavering fifth dimensional perceptions, they became clearer. Then it was my third dimensional world that would begin to waver in and out.
“Yes, you are recalibrating,” spoke the voice responding to my thoughts. They always did that, the fifth dimensional ones. They responded to my thoughts, even when they were different from my words. I couldn’t fool them, or say what they wanted to hear, as I could in the physical world.
The fifth dimensional ones could look into my Soul. They could hear what I hadn’t yet thought or felt.
“Your Soul is here with us. Do you see it?” spoke the voice.
Suddenly, the glimmer disappeared, and the wavering light-filled fifth dimensional room disappeared as well. Again I was in a world with harsh boundaries and hard edges. I tried to listen for the voice, but it was gone.
No, it was not the voice that was gone. I was gone, gone from that reality. I left it because I became afraid and the fear pulled my perceptions out of calibration. I knew that, because it had happened before. In fact, it had happened EVERY time that the voice had asked me if I could see my Soul. Why? Why did the prospect of seeing my Soul frighten me?
I closed my eyes and took long, slow breaths. I allowed myself to calm and to raise my consciousness so that I might again perceive the fifth dimension. Gradually, I felt the room around me begin to glow. I could feel the glow on my body and see it through my closed eyes. I felt the physical world as well, but it was in the background.
“Why does the prospect of seeing my Soul frighten me so?” I asked the voice. I held the question in my mind and directed it on the spot to my right where I had first seen the flicker.
I felt a rush of fear, fear of abandonment, and I almost lost my focus. However, I was able to catch myself and breathe out the fear. It took a while to raise my consciousness again. I affirmed to be patient and hold my vibration high. There is no time here, I reminded myself. Therefore, there is no hurry. I will wait for the answer—patiently.
Progressively, the flicker to my right became a light. Gradually, the light grew brighter and brighter until it became so brilliant that I had to refocus my consciousness in order to continue seeing it. The light expanded and filled the room—filled me. Then I felt my consciousness shoot up an octave or two and my physical world disappeared.
Within the core of the light a form began to materialize into a shape—no—into several shapes—no—into many shapes. It was like looking into a house of mirrors where one shape echoed itself again and again.
I started to become excited, but I knew to calm myself or I would lower my vibration. I affirmed again that I wanted to know why I became frightened by the prospect of seeing my Soul. The first of the beings stepped towards me, then all the others moved forward as well. I gathered my courage and stepped towards them.
“I want to know the answer!” I spoke to the many.
“Do you deserve us?” they responded.
I felt the fear building again. The many before me began to blur and the brilliant light began to dim.
“No,” I called. “I will not lose my focus.”
I reached out towards the beings in front of me.
“I DO DESERVE!!” I cried from my core. “I do deserve you—all of you. I am NOT afraid.”
The Beings before me had grown too dim for me to see their faces, but I could sense see the warmth of their smiles and feel touch of their hands. Then, I heard the echo of the many as they whispered in my mind,
“I do deserve
I do deserve
I do deserve.”
I followed their lead and chanted,
“I DO DESERVE!”
all the way back into my physical world and into my physical consciousness.
They were all gone then, at least gone from my third dimensional perception. But, I knew they were inside. I knew that whenever I could raise my focus, they would be there. Actually, “I” would be there.
“Actually,” spoke the voices glistening to my right,
“You are here now—in us.”