THE SEVENTH CHAKRA
SEVENTH CHAKRA 1994-1996
It was 1994 and my connection with my inner worlds had given me the courage to let go of the “what ifs” and live more in the “now;” I was gaining the wisdom to allow each moment to unfold before me, at least more often.
My meditations continued like a serial story with each installation picking up where the last one let off. My lessons with the fifth dimensional group continued, and I had learned by now to better perceive with my fifth dimensional senses. In one very special meditation the inner teacher took me aside and said, “Follow me.” I did, and she took me to a beautiful garden with a circular pond with a waterfall at the far end.
My teacher instructed me to enter the pond and swim to the waterfall. When I dove into the “water,” I realized that is was like liquid light and felt like swimming in silk. The water shimmered with a silver sheen and created a soft melody as I moved through it. Also, I could breathe it like we breathe oxygen on Earth. The water felt like a welcoming womb, full of hope and expectation. Would this water also take me to a new life?
I swam in this pool for what seemed like a lifetime until, at last, the sound of the waterfall broke my reverie. The sound beckoned me to enter it, to merge with it. There was a secret there, a promise. This promise made my heart leap and my mind race with myriad memories; memories of loss, pain, joy, and love.
Without my even knowing, I was suddenly in front of the waterfall. There was a small ledge of rock so that I could face the waterfall and look into it, like a mirror. Yes, there was a reflection. Was it of myself, or was someone on the other side of the water? My heart expanded beyond the limits of my form as my mind asked that question.
Something, someone, so familiar, more familiar than myself was on the other side of the waterfall. Could I join that person? Would he, or she, want me to? No, it was a male, yet so like me that he was a male counterpart of me. At last, I could wait no longer. With one step, a step that I have waited for all of time to make, I stepped through the waterfall.
It seemed like forever before I had walked through the falling liquid light. When you have waited lifetimes, how long does it take to make a single step? Then, we were face to face. In a flash of radiant joy, I realized that the person was my Divine Complement, the other polarity of me that I had felt my entire life.
We stood face-to-face and heart-to-heart. Naturally our lips met in our Soul’s kiss, and we merged into one being. I/we were the complete androgynous fifth dimensional being that we had always been.
Time stopped, space disappeared. I was Home. We were Home.
Then a hedge, which I had not noticed before, opened up in a welcoming manner. A memory from this life’s childhood flooded my mind. There was another hedge. It was at my Grandmother’s house, and I would climb through it to play with my very first friend.
Now, with my first friend in all my lives, we walked through the hedge, arm in arm, into the higher planes of the fifth dimension.
There is a natural inflow and outflow of life. Being self-employed most of my life, I have experienced this most obviously in my career. Living next to Mother Ocean, I have always likened that inflow and outflow to the ocean’s waves.
When the waves are pulling back into the ocean it is best to go into the water. I could of course go into the water when the waves are crashing forward, but there would be much resistance. Once in the water it is best to return to the shore riding the force of the shore-bound waves. If I tried to go against the wave, I would again meet resistance.
It is the same in life. There are times of inflow when we are naturally drawn to go inside to learn and to prepare for our “ride” when it is time for the outflow. During inflow, our primary focus is on our inner life as our outer life is usually familiar and unchanging. While following the outflow we are busy “doing” in the world and often find it difficult to find the time to go inside. My career was still in inflow. Gradually, I was gaining more clients and I had lots and lots of time to write—yes, I finally moved past watching Star Trek and playing solitaire.
All of my life I had wanted to go away somewhere so that I could do “something”. I had envisioned myself going far away to write. But the Universe taught me again and again, that the only place I need to go is within.
Finally, my body had calmed down. The hormones had assisted the pituitary gland in its transition and Goddess Kundalini was now about to meet her mate in the Crown Chakra, just as I had met my mate behind the waterfall. Perhaps both meetings happened at the same moment within the Eternal Now.
The pituitary gland is known as the Seat of the Mind and the pineal gland is known as the Seat of the Intuition. My intuition was becoming a part of my body and my everyday life. The pineal gland was now preparing to combine its essence with the pituitary gland to awaken the Third Eye. When it did, I began my final initiation.
FINAL INITIATION FOR THE SEVENTH CHAKRA
Since I was writing more, I had finally purchased a computer and had become comfortable with it. My seventh grade typing class paid off because I did not have to look at the keys. I had always avoided typing because I went too fast, just like I did in my life, and made too many mistakes, just like I did in life. With computers, typos are no problem as they can be easily corrected.
My written meditations told me to write with the computer so that I could close my physical eyes, see with my Third Eye, and quickly write down what I was experiencing. What I received was communication from the Brother-and-Sisterhood of Light. They initiated me into multidimensional Cosmic Consciousness and took me on a journey through the vortex. (This journey is documented in the Dreams and Aspirations Door of the Conscious Section.) In this journey I met my own future, fifth dimensional, androgynous self, Kepier.
My initiation was, “how could I tell anyone about this?” Surely, I was being delusional. Then I discovered the Internet and found that there were a lot of people, all over the world, who were just like me!! There was an opportunity for me to enter a college Website and “come out of the closet.”
All my life I had kept my spiritual life a secret. I had never had many people in my life who shared the same experiences that I had and I was afraid that I would be judged—like I had judged my own spiritual teachers. How could I go public? Maybe people would think I was crazy? Or, maybe people would not even care! It was the “not caring” that happened. I think my counter read 250 when the site went off-line. I had probably linked to it 100 of those 250 times, checking the counter.
My initiation was to not “need to be acknowledged,” but instead to acknowledge myself. A few people connected with me, and I learned that it was more important to have the courage to try than to be successful. Most importantly, I had come out. I had publicly stated, “I am a multidimensional being and SO ARE YOU!”
I had stepped upon the Seventh Step to Soul, but Kundalini’s journey had not ended. She had traveled up my spine to meet her completion and had opened me up to my multidimensional self.
NOW I HAD TO GROUND THAT SELF IN MY THIRD DIMENSIONAL LIFE.
GROUNDING THE KUNKALINI 1996-Forever
When the pineal gland joined the pituitary to open my Third Eye, I looked at the book I had written about my other incarnations and saw it, not from my fourth dimensional perspective, but instead, from my fifth dimensional perspective. This book then became two books: Visions from Venus, A Multidimensional Love Story and Reconstructing Reality, More Visions from Venus.
When I observed my other lives from a fifth dimensional perspective, I began seeing this present life from a fifth dimensional perspective as well. This perspective began the process of grounding my kundalini in my fifth chakra of higher creativity and higher communication.
My higher communications with the inner planes expanded to include the Arcturians, Mytria—my fifth dimensional Pleiadian self, Jaqual—my fifth dimensional self from Antares, Franquoix—my Draconian/Arcturian hybrid self, IlliaEm, my Arcturian Oversoul, and most recently, Tarmaine—my non-manifest self from Sirius B. I wish to remind each reader that ALL of us have these connections. I am no different from anyone else. It is just that the awakened Kundalini has allowed me to remember more of my total SELF.
However, there was another extremely difficult challenge that I had not expected—the opening of my High Heart. Although some of my friends had suffered pain for months from the opening of their Heart Chakra, my opening had been relatively pain free. Because of this, I was not prepared for how difficulty I experienced with the opening of my High Heart. The High Heart is located just above the human heart and resonates to the color pink. Whereas the human heart is the center of conditional, physical love, the High Heart is the center of unconditional, divine love. In order for my High Heart to open, I had to heal a core belief that was established with my first human incarnation.
The leaky boat of my finances was sinking. I had to throw everything overboard that was not vital. I guess I could have got a “job”, but that seemed like I did not trust my Soul. I could only do what my heart loved doing, but first I had to release my shame—lots and lots of shame. Why was I ashamed? I was ashamed because my old indoctrination was that I was not “good enough” or “successful” unless I made lots of money. In other words, a financial portfolio is the true measure of a person’s worth. Even worse, to be in debt was a shameful thing.
My body was responding to the shame and signaled the beginning of my initiation. I became very ill with a lung infection during Christmas 1997. I was so ashamed because I could not buy nice presents. I had to know that “I” was enough of a present, and that I, my being, my love, was a great gift. This flew in the face of every core belief I had been programmed with as a child. Unfortunately, I did not learn this lesson that Christmas and did not gift myself. In fact, I think I was pretty miserable to be around.
As a child, I received copious Christmas presents. Every year I felt ashamed because I was getting presents when it was Jesus’ birthday. I would start the unwrapping vowing to think of Jesus and send Him love with the opening of each present. However, I never was successful. Somewhere in the flurry of excitement of physical “stuff” I would forget my vow and forget completely about Jesus. From this early experience my desire for physical wealth became shameful to me. This belief that I could love God OR love physical wealth started with my first incarnation and was repeated life after life. In these many lives I was the ruthless conqueror driven by greed, or the conquered victim driven by fear and shame.
It took me the entire year of 1998 to release all this shame. The shame that had begun with guilt about poor finances, expanded into ALL the shame I had ever felt in ALL my lives. Many of these lives were as a woman. My lessons had been around the enslavement of my love, my sense of unworthiness, and shame for what had been done to me and for what I had done to myself.
Many of us who have taken on female bodies in this life have volunteered to release all the shame that the feminine energy has accumulated from the eons of male domination and female subjugation. In order for Gaia to ascend into the fifth dimension, the Goddess must be free to express Her full power. Then the polarities of masculine and feminine can be balanced and merge into the Oness of the fifth dimension.
It was not until that shame was released that I could open my High Heart to Unconditional Love. This Unconditional Love had to be for myself first. After all, how could I give to others that which I did not possess myself? Also, to love another unconditionally without unconditionally loving ourselves can turn us into a doormat. When we love ourselves unconditionally, we will not allow others to treat us poorly, as we may do with human love.
Also, unconditional, fifth dimensional love is not unconditional unless it encompasses Unconditional Acceptance and Unconditional Forgiveness. Again, in order to give away these Unconditional fifth dimensional virtues, we must give them to ourselves first. That is what took a year. How could I love, accept, and forgive myself—UNCONDITIONALLY?
My body struggled bravely through this process. The lung infection, heart chakra malady, returned two more times. In my entire life I had not been sick that often. However, I refused to leave my Path. I knew that I had to Trust. I knew that I had to “let go” and “let God/Goddess.”
By late 1998 I was feeling better, emotionally and physically. It was then that I began to receive communications from ACEA (All Consciousness of Earth’s Ascension). I also had a powerful present and lesson from Kepier, my future self. For my birthday on December 27, 1998, she gave me the gift that would allow me to finally release my secret belief that I could not be spiritual while having financial abundance.
Here is a part of that letter:
Happy birthday to me, this day marks the close of one of the more difficult years of my life. I wish to take some time now to reflect upon what lessons I have learned so that I will not have to learn them again, at least not in the same painful manner… I will ask Kepier for assistance.
Please assist me in understanding the lessons that I have learned this year and please, instruct me about fifth dimensional manifestation.
I am pleased to assist you in both of your requests. First, allow me to add one new lesson that you have learned this year, the lesson of humility. Humility is a very important quality for a Light worker. You, as well as the many others who wish to ground the fifth dimension on Gaia, are healing all your third and fourth dimensional fears with your fifth dimensional, unconditional love. It is in this manner that you shall create the reality which you so desire. Remember,
THE STRONGEST CREATIVE FORCE OF ALL CREATION
IS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
If you wish to create something, you must love it into your life. You have wished for more money, but you have continued to hate it, or be angry at and afraid of it. That is not love.
For your birthday—our birthday—for I now reside inside of you, I give you the gift of “LOVE OF MONEY.” Yes, money. Not financial freedom or reward—but MONEY. Money is a word that you have tainted with your shame. Now love that word and love money.
Love attracts. Love heals. Heal your relationship with money by loving it. Call on me often. I will continue to send you the feeling of “love of money” until you have healed your old relationship with money and have learned to love it into your life.
In response to your next question, the key to fifth dimensional manifestation is WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN YOUR MIND—YOU LIVE IN YOUR LIFE. If you can believe in your mind that you cannot have both money and spirituality, then that belief becomes a reality. On the other hand, if you believe that money does NOT limit your spirituality, than you can have both money and an “awakened” spiritual life in the same moment. Remember, you are creating your own reality. An old belief that was created many lives ago, and reactivated in this childhood, can be released simply by ceasing to believe in it.
Within in a few months, my business had more than doubled and I had plenty of money to live comfortably. I had cleared my third and fourth “other lives” of shame and was therefore able to keep my mind centered on loving money. Whereas before I would say, “I am so afraid that I can’t get enough money.” I now would say, “When I get my money I will spend it on…”
The money did come, and the shame I had felt around not being worthy because I didn’t have enough money was cleared. While my High Heart was opening I had surrendered my first, second and third chakra to the Goddess because I knew that I had to be completely grounded to bring down my Power.
Regarding my third chakra, I became aware that I came from three generations of diabetics, and I sought guidance with a dietician to balance my blood sugar. My second chakra was working to assist me in communicating better with my third dimensional self. It is easy, at least for me, to become lost in my higher dimensional experiences. My second chakra reminds me that I have promised, along with many, others, to ground the fifth dimensional energies into the third dimensional world.
My root chakra encourages me to come out of hiding and to openly and honestly BE who I am. My first step towards that was this website and the publication of my books, one of which, Thirty Veils of Illusion, was written over fifteen years ago.
The process of my Kundalini rising took 22 years. Part of the reason for the long journey is that the process started in 1974 when the resonant frequency of the planet was much lower. Now as the entire planet is preparing for a conscious ascension into the fourth and fifth dimension, there is less vibrational and social resistance.
The other part is that I am a Capricorn. Slow and steady works for me so that I can learn to “use” each experience in my daily life. On the other hand, some people may have the entire Kundalini experience in a relatively short span of time. The children of the Baby Boomers were not raised with the same social restraints that we had. Therefore, they can awaken more quickly and easily.
Also, “generation X” is much more able to express both masculine and feminine energies, which is the vital component in raising the Kundalini. The merging of the male and female energies within one form is the sign of completion of the Kundalini’s rise into the seventh chakra. If the male and female energies are out of balance, the three rods of masculine, feminine and neutral will not raise at once and the body will suffer greatly.
If I had not also had a career to serve as an expression for my masculine energy, my body would have not fared as well as it did. This may not be true for all women, but as a Capricorn, it was true for me.
I write my story because I believe that many others have had, or soon will have the same experience, but they may not know what is happening to them. If the rising Kundalini is not a conscious experience, and the “unconscious” person may suffer and not know why. In fact, that person may even think that they are having a nervous breakdown when they are actually having a SPIRITUAL INITIATION.
I would very much like to hear other people’s stories of their rising Kundalini. We the Lightworkers of Earth have been hiding ourselves too long. I gave gotten great comfort and education from others’ stories on the web. I hope that there are those who can benefit from my story as well.